i am wondering ..
why i born to be so stupid !!
i dont wish to be liddat !
sometimes i think ..
why some students can be so smart ..
i really envy them ..
they don't need much studies and tution ..
but they still can get very high marks..
i really envy them ! really do !
but for me ..
i study so much ! why i still cant get the marks they want ?!
i really wanted to prove to them that i am not stupid !
why i just get higher marks ?!
i work really hard !
i study every night
now exams is comming ,
i really have no confidents that i can get the mark they want.. i really scared..
they ban me from going out .. i listen to them .. i studied ..
when i get back my progress report ..
i really dont dare to let them see ..
i really dont want this kind of result ! i really dont want ! i try to work hard .. but i still can cope with my work !
sometimes , i have tuition .. i really dont know the qeustions .. why my tuition teacher can understand me ? i know her student are all smarter thn me .. but i'm not ! i need time !
why my tuition teacher will tell my mum that i am not listening during her lesson ?! i really dont know why you must tell my parents liddat ?!
i do listen !
is i really don't understand !
i do tell her about this .. but she tell me that i am only finding excuses ! ):
i am really not finding excuses ..
sometimes i think ..
why god don't want to let me be smarter ?!
at least i don't need to be so tired and worried about studies now !
why sometimes i stay back during school to do some projects .. you will think that i am going out and playing with my friends ?!
why you just can't trust me ?! i really hope you will trust me ! really do !
i really dont like the feeling that you dont trust me !
if i am smarter .. maybe i don't need to worry and sad now le bah ..
i wish i can change away my this stupid brian !
this brian really sux ! i hate it ! ):
moody*



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